Out with the old, in with the new

So hey, everyone! Happy New Year! Yes, I’m sure the new year is old news to you all by now, with it being the end of 2018’s first week already. But here I am, and here you are, so let’s celebrate together.

As I look back on 2017, I’m torn as to how I’d classify it. The beginning was awful, the middle was a time of reconnecting with myself and my goals, and the ending was a wonderful, hopeful finish to the whole process.

This past year marks when I revived this personal blog from its mostly dead state. I’d had to set it aside late in 2014 because of life’s busyness imposing itself on me, and even though I hadn’t had any time for myself during the in-between years—much less any time to blog—I really missed it. Writing has always been therapeutic for me (I wrote about it in “Why we write” a few months back), and to have so much going on in my life and no time to process it better by writing about it was difficult. In the end, I realized I needed this blog as an instrument of healing, so I sat down and wrote all kinds of things that were on my heart . . . just sort of barfed out everything that was hurting . . . and just like that [“Why do you seek the living among the dead?”], my blog was part of me again.

As hard as that article was to publish, it practically wrote itself, and that was the first step to making my year stop sucking. My BFF, who was also having a bang-up year of rough health, surgery, and sick twins every time she turned around, decided for both of us that the best thing to do was to start 2017 over again. She’s a great influencer, so of course I said yes, and together we tackled what we needed to, boosted each other when we were tired of trying, and cheered when things finally starting to come together . . . better late than never.

This past year I lost a close friend, stood with one of my best friends as she became a widow, and put back on every pound I’d worked so hard to lose over the previous year. But I also reconnected with family and friends I’d neglected over the past couple years, got a fresh new look for my editing blog [you can read that blog’s recap here] and some new clients, and a whole lot more peace of mind as I continued to heal and grow and rediscover the “me” I’d lost for a time.

If I had to sum up the year spiritually, I’d use the word “broken.” But I’d also use the word “loved.” And “forgiven.” And “new.” The year was hard. But only when we emerge from the deepest valleys do we appreciate how high the peaks can get. How about that for a wise-sounding phrase? It sounds much prettier than the reality of how miserable things can get at times.

The bonus to the end of the year came right at the stroke of midnight: the official moment when my hubby went from “working class Joe” to “retired and thrilled about it.” He also will be going through some changes, and I’m hoping his bring him joy, because there’s nothing I love to see more than when he smiles with a genuine, deep-down contentment.

Change may not be all it’s cracked up to be sometimes, but growth is always well worth the ride. I’ll leave you with one of my favorite verses here:

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!  –2 Corinthians 5:17 ESV

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  1. I love reading your writing Lynda! I remember your first post when you started up again and found it refreshingly honest.

    Glad you are writing! I need more writers in my life!!!

    1. Thanks so much, Rebekah! Writing really is my therapy; there’s something about putting out all the “ugly” without sugarcoating it that makes me realize it’s still going to be okay in the long run. And hopefully someone who may be going through similar things will be encouraged.

      I’m sure you can relate! Your blog is all about encouragemnt through honest communication of our struggles, after all.

      1. Yes, I agree! Also, I loved how “broken” was the focus word of the worship today. (At least I thought it was!) It was so beautiful and definitely spoke to me. I was so happy you did the song “Brokenness Aside”–I LOVE that song. I think I would say my word last year was “Lost.” But more about that over coffee sometime! 🙂 It was a hard year for me–good–but hard. And “lost” was something I often felt. Which also made it hard to write, and I felt, and still feel I lack the mental energy for writing. However, same as you, it is so therapeutic for me. ❤ Either way, thanks for writing and I always enjoy reading it and hearing your perspectives. You are a beautiful soul, ❤

      2. “Brokenness Aside” is one of my FAVORITE “me” songs, as is “Broken Vessels.” Amazingly, last year when I was at my most broken, those were the two songs we sang during the hardest time, and I felt as if they were written with my heart in mind. God’s pretty cool that way.

        I’d say that coffee needs to be scheduled soon . . .

  2. “It sounds much prettier than the reality of how miserable things can get at times.”

    Isn’t that the truth?? Beautiful blog post Lynda – I’m so glad your year improved. Its amazing to look back sometimes and see what we survived, and to be able to look back at it positively is a wonderful thing. May 2018 be beautiful!

    1. Thank you, Kim, for both the visit and the comment! Yes, the good thing about the sucky times (probably the only good part!) is when we look back and see how much growth we’ve experienced. I’m counting on a fabulous 2018.

  3. I’d say that you had quite a year of learning, Lynda. And, you found your way to return to writing. Your post reminded me of how grateful I am for my friends. What would we do without them? I ask myself that a lot, and I value them more each day. Here’s to retirement joy!

    1. Learning. That’s a great way to encompass the year. I’ve emerged not-quite-unscathed, but certainly with a better appreciation of what I still have. I love my friends! They are truly a blessing to me. As for Tim’s retirement, he seems to be waking up happier each day, which makes me happy, too.

  4. I read that and all I see is your strength. Having been with you throughout those experiences, I know that even in your lowest “broken” moments, you kept your chin up and leaned on those who love you. And since you’re someone who’s always there for everyone else, I know that took a lot of courage on your part. But, my goodness that speaks volume of your strength. You sure did emerge from some of the deepest valleys this year, my dear Lynda, but I rather next time . . . when you feel like appreciating life’s high peaks, . . . how about not suffering too much first? 😛

    BIG BIG HUGS! And thanks for being an inspiration for everything life-related, you’re my friend and my guide, so if I ever walk into a wall I’ll blame you. 😉

    1. Now you’re going to make me cry. I’m SO thankful you were there through the ugliest part, to keep me from sinking further.

      I think I’ll take your advice and only find little hollows, rather than deep valleys, lol.

      Feel free to blame me for wall-walking. It’s my special area of expertise.

      ❤ ❤ ❤

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